I have been really trying to “find” myself lately… I have recently turned twenty- one years old, moved back home, and started an internship for a job I see myself doing in the future after graduation.
( Michigan Creative )
Who is to say what is the “right” thing to do at a certain age? I keep finding myself thinking in my head “who do I want to be?” “what do I want to do with my life?” I am trying too hard. I look on my Instagram and see all these people doing things and spend hours on Pinterest just searching… I need to just accept what I like and what I don’t like. I need to accept my style, in designing and just in general. I need to accept that friends aren’t going to stick around if they don’t share the same interests as you do. I am trying to figure out what kind of designer I want to be, what kind of friend, girlfriend, daughter, sister, aunt. But, when really I don’t need to sit there and think about those things…
Recently someone told me “YOU can only control what YOU want in your life” no one else. I choose to not be negative, sad, lonely, shy, timid.
I am going into a field of work where I need to be social, happy, outgoing, healthy, wise, creative, confident.
Growing up I never thought I would have this outlook on life I thought being all emotional and sappy is dumb and “whatever”… this summer has really shown me that everything will happen for a reason and having this internship and growing up and being independent has made me see what kind of person I want to be in life and what I want to achieve.
Social media has had a huge impact on my life … like everyone else’s too. My dad always asking me “can you turn off your phone for 20 minutes??” I don’t just sit on my Twitter, Instagram, or Facebook and look at everyone else life and what they’re doing (sometimes). It is more than that, and I look for ways to better myself and my designing and my knowledge. I am always looking at or reading things to learn. I notice things like the typography, placement of things, logos, videos, advertising. I want to be able to use social media to help others and make them feel the happiness they should feel on a daily basis. It seems silly to even talk about happiness but it really is deep down the core of you and your success in life.
Well to sum up what I have been going on and on about…
I really have noticed my eyes opening up to the creative world and enjoying everything for what it is. Telling myself to stay calm and know that everything will work out the way it is supposed to. Go along with the journey life has for me and take it one day at a time.
Drink water. Breathe. Surround myself with good people. Eat delicious healthy foods. Be C r e a t i v e. & always be grateful.